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Grabbing the branch and lifting my feet off the ground, I attempt to swing my legs up and onto the tree, only to find myself completely loosing grip while all strength evaporates from my arms. Lying on the ground, I realize that I was tricked by my mind to believe that I could still do this. Seasons have come and gone as the calendar pages turn, and physically I've enter a stage in my life called 'middle age'. But mentally it doesn't feel like anything has changed...what does middle age supposed to feel like in our mind anyhow?
My brain does not think in the realm of younger or older, but it does process experiences and makes calculations accordingly. I believe this is why it's so important to not always choose to sit on the side lines, but actually be in the game to benefit the most insight from it...of course, we can gain knowledge from others, but we really learn to do things by doing them.
Regardless of the logistics, or how I imagine our brain works, bottom line...my mind does not 'think' it is the same age as my body. So much so, that I would not know that I was a woman of middle age if it wasn't for the mirrors constant reminder of it. I feel like, I just barely started painting this picture and now the paper is showing age spots!
Last year I began using a bullet journal, and to start this year off, I filled January up with mindful quotes about 'time' and its reminder of the evanescence of all things connected to this world. Evanescence means to gradually disappear and vanish from sight. More then ever, I want to be investing in the areas of my life that will transcend, rise above and go beyond the limits of time.
In time, my painting will evanish...but the joy and impact that it hopefully made in peoples lives will not dissipate. The areas of my life that will remain, are the areas I invested in others. The awareness of being 'middle age' can make us turn inward, become self absorbed, and keep a tight grip on what we have - that's exactly what I don't want...I don't have to be scared of my life fading away if I am already giving it away.
As far as my little episode with the tree goes...falling down only makes me want to climb it all the more. Call it stubborn, call it foolish, call it vanity if you want, but my mind says 'I can' and I've learned, from doing it before, that I can. I just have to work a little harder for it now,
and avoid mirrors at all costs ;)
Regardless of the logistics, or how I imagine our brain works, bottom line...my mind does not 'think' it is the same age as my body. So much so, that I would not know that I was a woman of middle age if it wasn't for the mirrors constant reminder of it. I feel like, I just barely started painting this picture and now the paper is showing age spots!
Last year I began using a bullet journal, and to start this year off, I filled January up with mindful quotes about 'time' and its reminder of the evanescence of all things connected to this world. Evanescence means to gradually disappear and vanish from sight. More then ever, I want to be investing in the areas of my life that will transcend, rise above and go beyond the limits of time.
In time, my painting will evanish...but the joy and impact that it hopefully made in peoples lives will not dissipate. The areas of my life that will remain, are the areas I invested in others. The awareness of being 'middle age' can make us turn inward, become self absorbed, and keep a tight grip on what we have - that's exactly what I don't want...I don't have to be scared of my life fading away if I am already giving it away.
As far as my little episode with the tree goes...falling down only makes me want to climb it all the more. Call it stubborn, call it foolish, call it vanity if you want, but my mind says 'I can' and I've learned, from doing it before, that I can. I just have to work a little harder for it now,
and avoid mirrors at all costs ;)
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